Long time..

Hey, I'm just picking up on this again, so i hope you'll follow. Started on a new School and it's great! Love my roomies.. I dont go to the other one anymore, and somewhere in my heart i regret i did in the first place, it brough a lot of good things. But just to many åbad things as well. I hope this year. will be better, and maybe reconect with some of my old friends, i miss them so much. The reason i dont talk to them anymore, is my mother told one of my friends parents about the incedent with "the teacher" and now now they think I'm a lier and none of them will to talk to me...

Soo.. Well later!

IPhone!!

I am now writing from my new iPhone! I'm so exited! I love it. Best buy ever made..

Later! =)

New Romie!!!

YAY!! I got a new romie yesterday. She is my best friend, and I can't wait to spend even more time together. We moved in the new room yesterday, were 2, but it's made for 3 for there's so much space. We spend all evening cleaning, moving stuff and get our things pact out... And it's really nice now, before the was a bitch living here, but as soon as she moved out and her smell disappeared I felt comfortable. So I'm thinking this is going to be great!
Prom is tomorrow and I got everything under control! I told u I wold. But I got dress, shoes, makeup the only thing that I don't have is an idea about how my hair is going to be. It sucks but I'll figure that out too!
Give you an update later!

Prom!!

Wow, prom is in two weeks and I haven't found my dress yet! Or, I have one, but I'm not sure if I want to wear it.. And shoes!! OMG I AM TOTALLY LOST ON THIS ONE!! Well, I guess it will work out.. It always does.. ^^

Family Update

Well, it took some time before I got to write this. The visit went really well, I had a long very nice talk with my cusin, who's same age as me. He is very skinny, and now they send him to a place for people with anorexia and other eating disorders.. He's mot feeling good there so he needed someone to talk to, and it felt good talking to him again.. It's been a while since last time, so I talked about me life too. Because he understands me like no other. And I dont know why..
But it went really good, and I look forward to see them again! I hope it will be soon..

Family visits!

My 2 cusins comes today! So exited!  Give a update on how it went later!! LOVE!<3

Drama Drama Drama

So now that my friends and I have come over the rush I'm staying, we're back to everyday again. Not so interesting, but one of my girlfriends have some boy problems soooo....

She had sex with one of her friends, and she likes him... But he has lost interest in her since they did it! I dont know what hes is thinking, and I thought of asking him, but then again he dosn't know I know, and it might not be such a good idea, for him to know I know. Get it or what? Even I think that sounds confusing... I think that him not knowing, that I know is in best interest for all of us, we were very good friends some time ago. We spend so much of the day together, and we had so much fun. But then they started doing stuff, and I don't know... Something just came between us. And a hate that, because we were good together. Like we had so much in common and so much to talk about, all the time there were never any awkward moments, just friendly silence and consenting smiles and glances. We really clicked!
And I missed him so much for so long! But then he started talking down to me, like he was better than me. He started telling me what to do, and then to do it. He started comment on what I said how I said it. He made my confidence crack in the edge for some time.. Why is he saying these things? Do he want to change me? Am I not good enough? What is wrong with me then? Is he really so much better that me, so he is in his right to tell me over and over again all those things I'm doing wrong. Don't misunderstand me. I know I'm not perfect but what he's doing is cruel, and I hate him for it.

Feels so good to write that down... I have to get better at blogging. This is why I started blogging.  It makes me relax when i write thing down. I want this feeling of total relax in body and head.
- See you!
PS feel free to comment!! ;)

Going nowhere = Victory

Hey my meeting went good! I can stay at the school!! VICTORY to the students team! Students VS Teahchers 1-0

Friday 13th

Oh oh! It's Friday the 13th and i'm going to my meeting today! I don't believe in these things normally, but it irritates me that a have to go today..Well breakfast is calling..Later!

iPhone!

I will not buy the camera anyway. I want an iPhone 4S, so I guess the camera will have to wait, for me to make some more money, my mom is against it so I'll have to buy it by myself..

BUT what about a OnePiece? That would be nice too! http://onepiece.com/ Check them out! They waaay to awsome to not buy them!

Ummm, not so good.

I got sent home. I had a fight with a teacher, or that's the story, and I got sent home... So now I'm not sure what will happen to me, I'm just hoping that will be let back to the school. So we'll see, I'm going to a meeting on Friday, not looking forward to it...

Badfriend.com

I'm a horrible person. By room mate apparently thinks I'm cheeky and she won't live with me anymore. So I'm going to move,and I think it's really annoying that she did not say it to me before.

I was getting really mad at her because she ignored me, as if it solved anything. I had no idea, she had a problem with me, I thoght it was because of her dog, it made her tired and not that she was beginning to hate me! She and this another girl asks me if  I and the girl could switch places? I don't know that I'm doing wrong.. But something is very wrong with me.. 

Then there is this with my 2 other friends, the guy I was with and the girl who's one of my best friends in the world. They're not dating or anything, he just want some fun, and I get that cause I feel the same way. So if we for a second pretend they were dating, if that was the case, he would be cheating with me. Get the meaning? She dons'nt know he's spending time with me, but I know he spends time with her.. BUT THEY'RE NOT! SO! I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG. Technically. Morally I'm still a horrible person.. My conscience is not tearing me apart anymore though, no one got hurt! And no one knows except us, and because of he sees her to im not har that bad! It's not like I took him or anything! So I'm still trying to convince myself that it wasn't that bad..

I guess I'll see u later!

Shit!!

It is a long time lately! My computer was sent for repair, so I may not write much, but don't leave me! I mean, if it is someone out there. I haven't bought my camera jet, I actually also like the Canon EOS 60D, but it's just a little more expensive than I like...

- The day before yesterday I failed in being a friend, the story is that one of my best friends she likes this guy. But since she told me, he have just been flirting so much with me. He and I are good friends and he's damn cute and charming, so I just could not resist him any more .... AND I DON'T EVEN LIKE HIM THAT WAY! I feel so bad about myself, I would so like to tell her what happened, she just think we talked She told him what she feels for him and she is waiting for an answer and he dosn't know what he wants (clearly) but stil... I'm so scared to ruin our friendship, 'cause I really love being with her, and she is one of the best friends I ever had ..! Sometimes I hate myself and the things I do. I know it's wrong, but I do it anyway ..

Ohh I turned 15 today! 15 years the 15th march!! World here I come!

Well well...

Hey guys! (if there is someone)
I thought about it today..; What if no one ever red this, then it would be a total wastage of time. Sad sad thoughts..
- I did'nt do anything this week....Wastage of time again.. I'm I wasting my life? Is it even possible to do then I'm only 14? It's probably the most boring vacation I've ever held, all my friends went to party and had lots of fun. Me? I did nothing, saw some TV, went to work (which wasnt interesting eather) soo....

Right now im just so sad and I have no idea why.. I should be happy, going back to school, seeing my friends and all.. But im not.. I fact I just want to crawl back in my bed and cry... Actually writing this down makes me more sad. - I just want to do so many things, but I can't even do half..

Ohh noo....

Well well.... I changed my mind... I DO NOT KNOW WHICH CAMERA DO BUY AND IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!! I like the Canon 600D too.... But I don't know which one I want, and that sucks really bad.

- ANYWAY I started working again! So money should come running in to my account soon enough. I have  winter vacation, and im doing NOTHING, I should be more careful about my diet, but I'm like; So what, I have no school and nothing I have to do( other than work) and that includes I don't have to follow my diet".. Shame on me..

 SEE YA!

Camera?

I'm in love!<3<3 Canon EOS 1100D is a fantastic camera! ME GUSTA :P

But I need that camera, it's my dream to be a photographer, and i think this is a good start so; money saving  accounts is being roobt.. Not so lucky, but if its the way I have to go I'm going..

SEE YOU LOVER!

SO! The day before yesterday it was Valentinesday! "Love" I'm a bit of a fan of this tradition, so I wanted to do something nice for someone. But since I'm single a had a nice evening with my girlfriends.. Music, food, and everything I could ask for as a aloner on Valentinesday. I was out running in the afternoon so I felt pretty good all day, and I didn't have trouble convinsing myself that it was okay if I took another bite (Not so good!) But then a ran/walked 7 km and then I danced for ½ an hour! So I feel good the 14th. But one of my friends dosnt like I "so" active, because I hypermobile so I can't do thouse things very well. And I find kinda funny because he cares for me, and I'm not used to be, in that way, only by my family. He's a great friend, I hope he gets a good life...

Yesterday nothing special happend, 3 people got kicked out of the school. 2 of them were my friends... It's sad but expected, so I got to say goodbye before they left, some of the other students didnt...

Today I have 2 hours of freedom so I'm going to have a nap!

See you later alligator!

High school?

Hey!
Today I was out with my romie looking at a High School (we both live near the biggest 3 in the area) and it was  nice, but neather of us know where to go, because they were both nice and sounded nice..Soo... As for my weight losing thing its not going very well either. But I think I will do some training later dinner, wicth is in ten minutes... So I'll get to it. But then there is this book I have to read.. "Only" 250 pages left! I don't wanna read that stupid book, it sucks. Very much. While I have ritten this 5 minutes has past and I will go out at have something to eat!

Bye!

Weight lost - Failed

OMG!! I suck at this weight losing thing... I just ate a hole icecream!!  I have to get som more selfcontrol.... But it was a great icecream!

See ya!

Hellooooo!! :D

Hey, I just heard the new salute "sup"... So weird... It's the S in whatS and then UP... sup... wtf....?
ANYWAY Yesterday I found out I want to lose some weight.. Laying in the sofa all day wacthing Desperate Housewives and I Used To Be Fat on MTV... And I found out that the women i DH is very very skinny all of them, og I found out what I admire the guys in the other show, just because they can do the things they do... I thought about lossing weight for some time, and yesterday I thougt if they can, I can do it to! So 10 kg is going of! Or a least I will celebrate if I get 10 of.. But 7, 8 or 9 will do just fine!

See Ya!!