So now that my friends and I have come over the rush I'm staying, we're back to everyday again. Not so interesting, but one of my girlfriends have some boy problems soooo....
She had sex with one of her friends, and she likes him... But he has lost interest in her since they did it! I dont know what hes is thinking, and I thought of asking him, but then again he dosn't know I know, and it might not be such a good idea, for him to know I know. Get it or what? Even I think that sounds confusing... I think that him not knowing, that I know is in best interest for all of us, we were very good friends some time ago. We spend so much of the day together, and we had so much fun. But then they started doing stuff, and I don't know... Something just came between us. And a hate that, because we were good together. Like we had so much in common and so much to talk about, all the time there were never any awkward moments, just friendly silence and consenting smiles and glances. We really clicked!
And I missed him so much for so long! But then he started talking down to me, like he was better than me. He started telling me what to do, and then to do it. He started comment on what I said how I said it. He made my confidence crack in the edge for some time.. Why is he saying these things? Do he want to change me? Am I not good enough? What is wrong with me then? Is he really so much better that me, so he is in his right to tell me over and over again all those things I'm doing wrong. Don't misunderstand me. I know I'm not perfect but what he's doing is cruel, and I hate him for it.
Feels so good to write that down... I have to get better at blogging. This is why I started blogging. It makes me relax when i write thing down. I want this feeling of total relax in body and head.
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