Drama Drama Drama

So now that my friends and I have come over the rush I'm staying, we're back to everyday again. Not so interesting, but one of my girlfriends have some boy problems soooo....

She had sex with one of her friends, and she likes him... But he has lost interest in her since they did it! I dont know what hes is thinking, and I thought of asking him, but then again he dosn't know I know, and it might not be such a good idea, for him to know I know. Get it or what? Even I think that sounds confusing... I think that him not knowing, that I know is in best interest for all of us, we were very good friends some time ago. We spend so much of the day together, and we had so much fun. But then they started doing stuff, and I don't know... Something just came between us. And a hate that, because we were good together. Like we had so much in common and so much to talk about, all the time there were never any awkward moments, just friendly silence and consenting smiles and glances. We really clicked!
And I missed him so much for so long! But then he started talking down to me, like he was better than me. He started telling me what to do, and then to do it. He started comment on what I said how I said it. He made my confidence crack in the edge for some time.. Why is he saying these things? Do he want to change me? Am I not good enough? What is wrong with me then? Is he really so much better that me, so he is in his right to tell me over and over again all those things I'm doing wrong. Don't misunderstand me. I know I'm not perfect but what he's doing is cruel, and I hate him for it.

Feels so good to write that down... I have to get better at blogging. This is why I started blogging.  It makes me relax when i write thing down. I want this feeling of total relax in body and head.
- See you!
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Going nowhere = Victory

Hey my meeting went good! I can stay at the school!! VICTORY to the students team! Students VS Teahchers 1-0

Friday 13th

Oh oh! It's Friday the 13th and i'm going to my meeting today! I don't believe in these things normally, but it irritates me that a have to go today..Well breakfast is calling..Later!

iPhone!

I will not buy the camera anyway. I want an iPhone 4S, so I guess the camera will have to wait, for me to make some more money, my mom is against it so I'll have to buy it by myself..

BUT what about a OnePiece? That would be nice too! http://onepiece.com/ Check them out! They waaay to awsome to not buy them!

Ummm, not so good.

I got sent home. I had a fight with a teacher, or that's the story, and I got sent home... So now I'm not sure what will happen to me, I'm just hoping that will be let back to the school. So we'll see, I'm going to a meeting on Friday, not looking forward to it...

Badfriend.com

I'm a horrible person. By room mate apparently thinks I'm cheeky and she won't live with me anymore. So I'm going to move,and I think it's really annoying that she did not say it to me before.

I was getting really mad at her because she ignored me, as if it solved anything. I had no idea, she had a problem with me, I thoght it was because of her dog, it made her tired and not that she was beginning to hate me! She and this another girl asks me if  I and the girl could switch places? I don't know that I'm doing wrong.. But something is very wrong with me.. 

Then there is this with my 2 other friends, the guy I was with and the girl who's one of my best friends in the world. They're not dating or anything, he just want some fun, and I get that cause I feel the same way. So if we for a second pretend they were dating, if that was the case, he would be cheating with me. Get the meaning? She dons'nt know he's spending time with me, but I know he spends time with her.. BUT THEY'RE NOT! SO! I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG. Technically. Morally I'm still a horrible person.. My conscience is not tearing me apart anymore though, no one got hurt! And no one knows except us, and because of he sees her to im not har that bad! It's not like I took him or anything! So I'm still trying to convince myself that it wasn't that bad..

I guess I'll see u later!